Have a Happy Apocalypse

Well i did not know what to call this piece. And at the precise moment i sat to write the kids' computer game noises became most annoyingly thought chasingly loud unto my ears. but a few moments ago i was thinking, and the thinks seemed blogable. 

  But alas i have lost their poignancy and the babbling you are ever so inquisitively reading is my attempt to distract you while i practice using my memory to recover lost information. 

  Had a thought about god while i was reading a thing from a ex Christian site.... apparently it must have been soooooo good that the devil doesn't want me to remember it.... thus the loudness of children. OR.... lets see ..

 if you looked for god while you where crying not to lose your faith in something your mind and heart could no longer accept.... and you begged him to show just one clue about his existence and there was no response but silence. therefore there must be no god. So you understand about String theory... or parallel universes? going on top of my head rough memory i think they are the same thing .... eh no matter really to my point. Point is, before we had developed the science

 ( reminds me of god as the scientist reasoning i had that i mean to get to)

....before physics, to speak of other worlds along side our own, or the time space continuum, or even light refraction for that matter would be unto them as to speak about god is to us. You complain there can be no god because there is so much evil. Yet CLEARLY it is left in OUR POWER to stop doing evil.

Perhaps God is a scientist, you as a scientist would not pluck at and seriously alter the results of an experiment would you? Not if you want the truth of the matter. We Humans tend to think we are the most important thing in the universe. But we are infinitesimally small. I presume god could pluck out those times when you got raped, even though it was already in your genealogy and intellect to not need to rape and victimize others. 

There are other places in the universe. other beings. Surely other things relating to god. This is not an argument such as... well maybe god is too busy to stop the rape, he don't care enough to or he just cant.

Or look i am blaming the sinner, major cop out. NO... People who screw up always complain they didn't know why they did "it", they sort of watched themselves do "it", Or was taken up in the moment. (here presuming the 'it' is some bad evil thing) But i contest that before any evil action takes place, a mental action takes place. 

 Justification, excuse, a lie, and persuasion and conviction, and finally a permission. We decide at some point our action is right for us. Therefore it is not god's fault you got raped. It is sad, horrid that bad shit happens. A lot of things are bad and horrid. In physics everything is connected.....in some arguments everything that happens is seamless. A person stomping in china could presumably make earth quakes in America. Or that if you go back in time and leave or change something you alter the course of history.

 In our world there have been two kinds of people. Honest and Liars. all the other subcategories of thief, violent, small minded, can fall other either side. People who try to better things for the long run, and people who seek the pleasure of the now. And apparently they have better ammo than we mindful folk because they keep winning the tide of history. SO maybe this "experiment" is one of how a race of beings overcome it's evil.

 Perhaps this is one cosmic step toward advancement in the ability to even intellectually grasp the "physics" necessary to calculate god? Meaning we are unqualified to make logical arguments for or against god. If we can not conceive beyond our evils and trudge toward THAT basic ideal alone, how could we begin to find words for god? 

 Oh sure, ( i hear the mummer) Your arguments are good but after a while seem more like indoctrination rather than liberation. What you have so far disproved are the KNOWN arguments for and against true religion and imaginary hopes.

 You have discovered the ways HUMANS manipulate the mind, and how dogmas set you up for failure. Such as if there is god, why doesn't he this or that? But that is not the only way to realize god. Apparently his assistance in this world is NOT a physical thing.

 Although for some.. nay many they seem to understand how god assists in their own lives. Call it rose colored glasses, but i am not speaking of anything they have to convince themselves of, things beyond god saving their parking space. If god , who gave us a scientific mind is himself a scientist, that he hasn't scrapped the project yet would be a favorable thing to preach.

 And since we are a conscious experiment couldn't we try to figure out a bigger picture? I have been thinking lately about how glorious we have been. How time has seemed to stop. The only future for us is more leisure and technology.

 The maintaining of human order, and the ever so human back and forth wars and changes. It seems like all the knowledge we speak with each other is really just a regurgitation of how we interpreted what someone else said. Our sciences are still standing on Tesla's shoulders and i fear we aren't really advancing in our great human thinking....... or Maybe we are.... i mean buildings are getting better looking but glorifying things of urban satisfaction but not as spectacular as buildings that yearned for a better beyond.  

There are more pills, but not enough money for more cures and discoveries. I mean i KNOW our CDC and all them medical types are discovering new things but inside i feel like well frankly i am not part of that. It doesn't seem new or as if we are advancing. But then i am sure there where people who still felt like it was the dark ages when Michal Angelo was famous.

 SO i digress i might be swimming in the deep end about time has caught up with the past and isn't moving forward. But i like the idea.

 Like.. there are Egyptian hieroglyphs that depict something that looks very similar to a satellite. That is like past and present are meeting up. The whole Aztec prophecy thing they are long dead but their past is touching our present.

  SO if one was so mystically minded it might seem like a time stop...or loop.....or anything..... If pole shift happens.....then our calendars change... navigation changes...... the stars change..... the climate changes....... what we know might not work anymore. Pole shift is fairly certain.. but my point is that what we know now, how we move and mark time will be altered. 

 That means that all ancient calendars become obsolete in 2012 (presuming of course) That's something therefore a bit attractive to the idea that past and present have come full circle. 

 We live in times that fairly openly celebrate all the times previous. We make movies that take place in the 1800's for example, we preserve our memories our art and writings.... we continually add to our collections. We seem to enjoy the best of all the things that came before. 

Except for our pesky greed violence and ignorance, we are at a perfect time for apocalypse. Look at Rome. They where the pinnacle of the times. anyway.... other thoughts approaching after bathroom break. 

 I been thinking about having to head for the hill country if my country freaks out. I am concerned about being wise to know when is a safe Go time, how to pack, and of course which of my books to take along. 

 If the country goes ape shit i am living out my life in them hills, i don't know what will happen down here. End of it all cave man mad max ville... or complete state control.... or the eventual return of sensible government.

 So what is important for me to preserve? I think my history books for the old days ( 50's when they expected kids to have a useful education) My books on the Constitution, The writings of Ben Franklin. Education English, basic math, dictionary. But what about my religious books? One of each ? or my personal favorites? Definitely the favorites.

  Hey i ought to hard copy my blog in case of apocalypse or Internet censorship.

 (oh people are already doing that.... i am so behind the times) 

 Maybe a literature book or three. Of course i have to pack other house things and clothing and the food we been storing. But it is very important for me to preserve the memory America, and the Basics if not more of general education. Just as important as surviving is knowing the past. 

  I am so afraid that i would be of little worth in a post apocalyptic scenario. I would be the old woman back in dem hills, with a dusty moth eaten library holding some mish mash of a dame school to any traveler who wants to learn to read. Terrible fate for me... i have NO patience for teaching.But i also don't expect to be visited much since the majority of folk will be more interested in rebuilding their new life. 

 SOooooo I would spend the rest of my life seeking ways to permanently preserve the books just in case all becomes lost and some archaeologist would find the history interesting. I will achieve fame some how LMAO.  

My latest wild fantasy is what if, wayyyy in the future my personal writings are recovered by a tech-no archaeologist, and my thoughts are considered sooo brilliant that they base a new revival of my "religion"..... well.....it was a fleeting fantasy..... 

 I did some research into how many end dates have been going on since the birth of recorded life on earth. And i hear many people saying see... this 2012 thing is just like all the rest. And i think maybe that's what makes it more significant. In this case it is not a small group of doomsayers and it is not merely once source of information. Not to mention the weird signs on earth that i don't think our previous naysayers imagined. 

 Or perhaps it is significant because regardless of affiliation with any doomsday idea, people are becoming a bit more self aware....well maybe.... I am... and a few of my friends are... and i think our vision and ability to see how we need to change the way we are doing things is in the air.

  We can now realize how to be better humans, but i know reality still seems to be steam rolling toward various catastrophes, my hope lies in the aftermath of theses things. Maybe it could take root in us to change our dishonesty's and hold on to democracy and to stand firm knowing "NEVER AGAIN" which leads me to my finial thought of this morning.... a song parody

.... I am sad to be an American, where at least i think i am free. And i wont forgive the men who live who take that right from me. And ill gladly bunker down next to you and revive her still today cause there ain't no doubt i love this land God Save the USA.  

Justine