Consultation Time pt.3

Yes, Ma'am

"Yes what?"

Yes, i want you to clear it up more for me.

" Sit back, tonight you are in quotes."

 

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First big picture, let us look at the pattern of your recurring 'meet the big person who can  help you' fantasy. You had noticed earlier how your spiritual desires are tainted by these patterns.

Second big picture, you also said that this time it was so different that you literally reached out. Even after you had learned to ride these little dreams down, knowing they end in a few days.

This one shook you up. Are you able to be more direct with details?

"The fantasy is an ingrained cry for help and and attention. Normal everyday people can't help but say their platitudes. It is exciting when you think you find a new tootsie roll. lol

When i was younger i sang two songs, like a mantra if you will.

" i am a Buddha , he's a Buddha,  she's a Buddha, wouldn't you like to be a Buddha too?"

and ... " everything i think i see, becomes a big Buddha to me.....Kill em all"

 

What is killing them in your view?

 

"Something about,  not being attached. Not having  um...*something* concerning them.  I mean if the end of the game is to be one with your total mind. To find no separation between you and myself.

 

To be natural, clear etc. Then what is not Buddha....if there is one i think killing it means help it return to ordinary and normal."

 

Are you sure about that?  * smiles* 

 

*listening to the song ONE by Metallica, official video version important because the added lines bare intent and meaning)......figured "And Justice for All" was a fine album for this blog what say you?* 

 

 

 " i feel like praying now. I am unable to be more direct with details. Or bring up any of the kinds of questions we reviewed earlier. "

Perhaps I laid too broad a topic, we had talked of so many layers earlier I thought maybe you where ready for the leap you where thinking of.  But this method we are working out, it is not easy to do. So let's end now. And let's drop it, and then return When   what ever you are wanting to say or do is blog ready.

You had a vision for this blog. About explaining things for people.  But digging around in your personal toy box, is to the audience, as if you started blabbering about your model of a  quark. And you get butt hurt because no-one understands the subtle nuances.

It is alright, that little chapter is over for now. And take heart that if there is only one mind and the Lama you Like knows that and practices it much better than you do...then....

she knows.

*lets the pot simmer, dinner will be wonderful*