Hello, It has been four years.

Dear unreader, I had abandoned you. Dear novel, I have sorta butchered you. But I have comeback with a repair kit.

It has actually been since 2012 since I last wrote, somewhere along the way I added story line and then I kept wrestling with my morals.  Or more perfectly  I was struggling with my perceptions of what others might be confused by and it started to choke my muse.  

But the story of the characters are still in me, and my life adventures these years have  given my muse a little thrill.  I am thinking about George's career and the book of his adventures. But I felt I had rushed chapters 20 thru 30, and feel that I have not expanded One thru Ten. And I was thinking about expanding each chapter with each characters having a voice of observation. This allows me to expand as much  "time" as I need. And if I had already suggested this years ago, then yeah I didn't read the comments before posting lol.

But I am not going to concern myself with whether or not the reader understands what whips are. If they have this mel gibson inspired image, they are no where near what I envision. So there are parts in my introductory chapters that I feel block the reader and is a bit of a hurdle to get over to get themselves into the spirit of the story of these kids lives.  

But in retrospect, that shock is sort of a theme of loosing your freedom and being put into a strict environment.

I have tried to explain that this is a different reference to things, these people are not human, but evolved in their own reality and view violence and use it quite differently than we learned it on Earth.

These evolutions have understood that pain is a teacher. Can be a conduit of instruction. Even many cultures in the earth understood this. There is pain in martial arts, and you would not call it abuse. Humans have always mentally connected, although incorrectly used punishment with moral lesson. But we are still very unevolved and stuck in the mentalities of ego.

For us, we cannot separate our desire to punish because our ego is hurt, or because our god's ego is hurt. Because we take a personal thing against the personality of someone....because they won't shut up.  Humans use violence in an undisciplined way. They will kill their babies to teach them to obey the order to shut up.  

Human minds have a shadow. And we don't like it, so to think ourselves better we take the position of nonviolence. And think there is never a need nor use for it except in self defense.

Yet violence will continue to be a part of our experience and our learning.  You can be very nonviolent, as to never feel hate or vengeance, yet there will be a thing that happens that leaves you with a need to oppose the course of another thing. Other humans tend to be that thing. But undisciplined violence is when we get caught up in the moment of justice (vengeance?) and go over board. Like they slashed our tire, then we murder their dogs and accost them as long as we live in the same town.  They throw snow on your lawn, we dump our sewage on theirs.  These things perpetuate hate and justifying reasons to be violent.  

We act on these emotions and then we build ideologies around these emotions, then we make friends who have ideologues around theses emotions. Soon we try to out do each other in the manors in which we carry out justice ( vengeance?) upon others.

Who have we forgot?  If we could exact the violence that is equal to the offense,  without our egos satisfaction, then  human characters can learn lessons and grow in life. Sometimes a physical catalyst connects the dots, or becomes a point of decisive memory.  We know this is so, because how many of us have pain as the thing that helped us make life changing decisions? hum?
I'll wait.

On Kehshathria they made a science of the psychology of discipline. And they are a moral society, and everyone is on a spectrum just like humans are. But socially  certain behaviors are not given as much respect as they are among humans.  Power, to a Kehshatrian is interpreted by  levels  logic, understanding and self command rather than obtaining the fear and control of others to suit a personal narrative.

This understanding is something I hitherto fore had been feeling the burden of and could not write.  If my reader cant get past chapter ten, how can I tell the story?   

So I am going to work on some explanatory expansions and try to suit them into any spaces I can find to throw a tangent.

I wonder if an author can ....(insert an entire history of reverie with dialogue that covers an entire chapter from everyone's point of view)

           ***the voice that plays the characters****

      Gee I don't know, but that horror story writing guy, who wrote about a girl with telekinetic powers and a crazy mother, seemed to have been able to put in very long soliloquies right in the middle of the drama and or soliloquy of an other character. I am sure we can. 

            **** the author*****
randomly insert reveries without missing a beat in the timing of the story? 

          Anyway I will experiment, see this is the kind of thing that makes having a good education  useful....wish I had one. 


So I am going to list a guide map to the location of the  new inserts here 

First one is George in Chap 30.  I will be working on an other George insert for the end of chapter sixteen, over this weekend or so.  


(sometimes novels take for ever to write, and then to think gah it has no audience, no one cares , your idea is shit man......is the strange and violent illogical fear that most authors have to deal with. freaken humans)


Well time to work on this. I really cant get the mo jo to add new material until i fix that i got already. Also I have been cutting out bits of dialogue. nothing Major but really won't be mentioned so much such as the scene where Jerry is trying to go down stairs and has his first....(oh yeah this bit would be a spoiler) I think there where too many words, what was said can be shortened for more emphasis.

well , see ya, I dont feel like thinking philosophically or even confessing the lessons my real life has been teaching me. (pssst Narcissists really suck and I plan to make George mentally eviscerate one , after the other, after the other, but that would be my shadow violence trying to exact more pain in effigy than I experienced...lol)